Startups are Fucking Hard...

... and I wanted to die yesterday.

Hey friend,

I literally spent a good deal of my evening staring down my shower drain as I yelled and screamed and cried about doing my job; you know, being a startup founder and all that good shit.

You can read the larger thread there but the hits hit so hard yesterday that it fucking buried me. I was so overwhelmed that I couldn’t do much more than just sob.

The rollercoaster that is a startup is not for the faint of heart. It’s not even for those who have pretty robust hearts. It’s for the clinically insane. It’s for the people who believe that if they don’t do this than they’d die.

Which is strange because I want to die in both scenarios. At least I’m both right I suppose since the outcomes are the same — which! — is precisely why I might as well continue to move forward.

You have to be insane to do this job. You have to believe what no one else really, truly, believes. Because, if they did, the choice would be obvious. But, it’s not and it won’t be for a long time. And that’s what makes this job so lonely (at times).

But that’s why you do it… so you don’t have to be alone, eventually.

To infinity & community,

— john